Lost love

My friend Taso's birthday is coming up soon. After my ex decided to hack into my email account in 2010 out of sheer jealousy and send Taso an email to get away from me forever, Taso cut off contact with me for a while. I painfully accepted- what choice did I have in the matter?

I begged on Krishna's altar for months after, to no avail. I stopped visiting the temple to meditate for a while. My faith in God decreased a great degree until that fateful day when I randomly went to the temple when I was in the area and saw Taso sitting in the same meditation center, exactly five months after the last incident. Goosebumps crawled up my body as I realized that god actually actively heard my prayers. S/He is there- s/he holds me, protects me, loves me, gives me what I need and sometimes want. I do not need anyone else in my life other than my god- s/he is enough. I also realized why Taso and I were not meant to be. My gut feeling never agreed to it.

I spoke to Taso for a while that day. He held my hand in his and sat on the floor as I sat on a pedestal at the temple- he told me that I looked lovely, and that he had been thinking of me for a few weeks now. In fact, he had often seen me on the Temple's Webcam and wondered if it was me. We both apologized to each other- me for letting the whole thing happen; him for acting out as if it was my fault. We also agreed that the internet is a dangerous place and that it was best if we wrote letters to each other. I sent Taso a birthday card last year, wishing him the best to his family and him. He wrote a thank you letter back to me, which I tucked away at my altar as a thank you to divinity. I saw Taso again at the temple on my birthday (someone was getting married at the temple on my birthday and Taso was photographing it. How random, and how ironic). However, I have since not written back to him. I will soon, because

(a) Taso was the inspiration for me to look for a higher happiness and get out of an unhappy relationship
(b) His chapter in my life was intended to teach me faith, compassion and patience
(c) He deserves a birthday wish. I wish his twins, his ex and him much joy and togetherness.
(d) It makes me happy just to physically write to someone. That is how I used to stay in touch with my grandparents and friends when I was in India. Maybe he'll send me a note or a postcard back- it puts a smile on my face to receive one.