Monday, January 30, 2012

I'm frustrated

to my core. My hands are tied and I've never regretted being broke before, but today marks the first day of it.

My energy is pure and positive, but I feel it weakening, and as I sense repeated roadblocks, I feel faint and tired to the point of exhaustion. I've dealt with so much last year and my sickness has left me spent. What do I do? I keep banging on all the doors, but they remain closed. I wish I had enough positivity in me to fight it all back, but I am really weak at this point. My weight has dropped to lower than 100 pounds as a result of being sick. Work is piling up here. My brother is suffering from Chicken Pox which he contracted from me. I am facing blocks to my happiness. It all seems to line up against me and I am afraid that I will break into pieces, like a twig. What about my happiness? Did the fates forget to write in my destiny even the basics? 

I need Krishna's help- today, more than ever. No, I'm not giving up on anything. My mind just needs rest.

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