Jimmy, you loved me in the true sense. I am so sorry that things did not work out between us and that the love died because of disagreements about my career choice. I just want to thank you- you did your best for both of us. I did, too, but I fell short. I am sorry- the breakup was one of the most difficult times of our lives- especially for you. I am so proud of you that you went on to Medical school despite everything, and that you were able to soldier on through your exams despite the breakup.
You did all you could for me- you took me out, you woke up in the morning to drop me to train stations- heck, you even talked to my dad for me. Your family was wonderful to me- we would have been married had I not made the choice to become an actress. Sometimes, I wonder whether I made the right choice in choosing that particular career and giving up everything else. Please realize that I did not want to abandon our relationship- I gave it 2 years of struggle and arguments and disagreements before finally bidding you goodbye. To this day, your love haunts me. Your care, your concern for me, the little things you did, my dear. How you fed me food with the ladle spoons, how you held my hand when your drove. You did not let me step on the ground. I was always your little princess, Jimmy.
I do not know if anyone will ever treat me as a princess ever again, J. But, I will always hope that you and your Pooja have a beautiful life together, and that when you look back at me a few years from today, you realize that I never meant you any harm, and that I was genuine in my efforts to salvage whatever we had. I am very sorry for whatever hurt I inflicted upon you. May god bless you, as he already is, from what I can see :) As for me, do rest assured that I am paying the price for being selfish. God did do justice to you. I am suffering right now for causing you suffering.
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