I don't want to pine

I don't want to pine anymore. But, it is my punishment. I must, or else I will never learn my lesson.

And then, I ask god for forgiveness. I ask him to grant me my wish. I asked myself, If I had to walk for 8 hours continuously to have my wish fulfilled, would I do it? OF COURSE! I would walk on burning coal in order to get this wish. Shit, if I don't get this, I'll die. Therefore, I must have it. I know that god will grant it to me, on his timeframe. I KNOW THIS FOR A FACT. Waiting is actually harder than walking on burning coal, believe it or not. But, it is also a lesson.

All these things teach me some important stuff. I am grateful that I learn these when I'm 23!