My Krishna

I love my Krishna so much. He's wonderful, really. He fills me with joy whenever I need some uplifting, he fills me with hope whenever I feel like there is no motivation to go on anymore. He gives me signs everytime I ask for them. I was sitting at the temple today, and this one lady was singing. Her voice was lovely, beautiful enough to bring tears to my eyes. I shed a few tears as I asked Krishna why he has forsaken me. I felt like a little child in a playground, who cannot see his/ her parents and is surrounded by bullies.

I went outside the temple, and sure enough, I saw another sign. On my way back home, I saw several other signs. Once I was home, I turned on my laptop and turned on Pandora. I heard a beautiful song, which translates to something like this-

The destinations appear blurred
You lower your eyes for a moment
On the path where your head is heavy with pain
That is where you find the road to god

You change your destiny
with your courage, and you move along
my footsteps will serve as your guide
You may not be aware, but god is around you

Take a look at yourself
You walk, worn down by circumstances
Why are you so disheartened?
The lines of destiny on your hands
can be altered by your own courage
You can paint the world
with the color of your dreams

I am the one who always walks with you
So what, even if it turns dark
When the night takes over,
You will find my abode
and a new dawn will be bestowed
You may not be aware, but god is all around you.

Marks made by everyone are erased by time,
The ones who leave a permanent mark in this world
Are the ones who accept challenges as my will and fight them

Whenever you feel alone in this world,
remember, my shadow always walks with you.
I will be wherever you are
I won't leave you alone, even for a moment.
You may not be aware, but god is all around you.

There. This was what I needed. Another round of waterworks. I cried more in the past three weeks than I ever did in my whole life combined. Yes, sounds pathetic, I know, and I am the last person to shed tears- I have not done that very much at all in life- just not that kind of person. But, I felt a lot better after hearing this. It's almost everything that I was asking the universe for- and a confirmation that my prayers will be answered, as they always have been in the past- I just haven't bothered to ask for too many things, that's all.

My first marriage is with Krishna. Always and forever.