Today feels like a test of endurance. My head is as heavy as lead; there isn't a part of my body that is not sore; I am shivering and I am at work. Last night, I could not sleep because of this nasty cold that my body is harboring. As I went downstairs to drink some water at 5:30 am, I felt weak and nauseated. I had to sit down on the stairs on my way back up to my bedroom. My fingers felt frozen and I felt chills run down my body. I can't focus on anything; my mind is cranky; men who I do not want to talk to at all are constantly contacting me and I don't know how to take it politely anymore. I wish some people would just get the hint and disappear. The height of this madness is that I cannot sit at my meditation center (temple) till the end of the service anymore because this man would run out and chase me all the way to my car. I literally sneak out five minutes before the chants end. Another "friend" keeps calling and texting to hang out; but he constantly tries to get close and makes innuendoes that make me very uncomfortable. I've told him to stop but he won't listen. I get irritated and that makes me want to wall up and not be so open to talking to strangers and people in general. I would deal with this well usually but my sickness makes it worse.
Today marks the sixth day of this torture and I can't wait to be healthy again.
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