with the people I love. It's a weakness- but the ones I love are always truly special to me; they mean more to me than life itself. I hurt myself if I ever hurt them.
Yes, I'm the same girl who jokes, "I lost my reputation, but I never missed it." Sure, I'm flirtatious by nature and every man is like a notch on my bedpost- I dated a lot of people in the short amount of time that I was single, but when I love someone, I cannot bring myself to make love to someone other than this person. My heart just doesn't agree to it and I won't ever do anything that my heart refuses.
If you're reading this, know that I love you. A couple days ago, I had a hunch to ask you how you were- I didn't mean to bother you, but that moment, when I suddenly felt uncomfortable, I only wished that you were okay, no matter what you were doing or who you were with. I know your heartbeat and if I ever become blind, I'll know you by your voice and your touch. I'll know you through sensing you and through the joy that overcomes me with your sheer presence.
I also know that it's tough. But these are things that people before us have overcome- luckily, we're both blessed with good health and sound minds. I always seek to be bigger than our circumstances and stronger than our problems.
I wait for you, as I always have, not because I don't have a choice or because I'm weak, but because I know we belong with each other. I wanted to write to you today, but I wasn't sure if it bothers you to hear from me or if it makes things more complicated, so I stopped myself. Take care. You are missed.
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