Ask and it is given

They say that when you ask for things from the universe, it delivers them to your step.

I have experienced this before, sometimes in rather mysterious ways. I then ask god today for a healthy, happy relationship. I ask for problems to resolve and for my faith in the power of the divine to become stronger. I ask for love and I ask for strength to overcome the odds. I ask for him to heal- I ask for healing myself. I ask for wisdom to take the right steps in this difficult situation. I understand now that life is always going to be difficult for me. It just means that I'll always have to struggle more than I deserve to- much more than others. That is okay, as long as I know what's in store.

I ask god to free myself from the belief that I was not good enough for him to stop his sexually deviant behavior and fantasies. I ask for understanding that this is his issue and not mine. I ask for my laughter back. I ask for peace and reassurance that things are going to be okay.