What I am experiencing right now is a rather scary feeling. I cannot focus on anything good or joyful- not even love, not even supreme love (Krishna), not my parents, not any life goals, nothing at all. I am just sitting there; hoping for the next moment to be better than the previous one. I woke up 4 times during the night. I could not fall back asleep, as much as I tried. I felt so anxious in the pit of my stomach. I feel just terrible. How can life be so fickle and so full of nothing?
Is it all an illusion? What does it even mean? The most frustrating part about this whole ordeal is that I cannot point my finger to what exactly is wrong...I don't know myself- If you don't know what is wrong with yourself, how do you fix it?
It feels like my soul was sucked out of me, and I am here just with my body, and nothing else.
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